I want someone to fight for me..

Just once. I want someone to be afraid of losing me, no matter our relationship. Not just say that they don't want to lose me. I want them to mean it. I want them to genuinely be afraid of losing me. You have those people, that just say that they never want to lose you. But then one day, they decide to leave. I want someone to fight for me. When I'm about to leave, they pull me back. Tell me what they love about me. Tell me how much they love me. Tell me what I mean to them. Show me, how much they don't want to lose you. Words mean nothing. I want them to prove to me, everything they'll ever say to me.  You say you love me, well show me that you do. You say you care about me, prove it. You say you don't want to lose me, well, show me. One day, I hope someone will fight for me, one day soon.</3

I love you.

In the past two days I have had someone compliment my loyalty, my trustworthiness, my looks, my attitude, my brother, my family, and just me. I don't think anyone understands how happy I am right now. Like, I keep catching myself smiling and I don't even know why. I am so content with most of my life. I am living my life how I think I should live it and I don't give a crap what anyone thinks. I have been so busy, but I still find time to text those that have been there for me. So, pretty much, don't expect me to be there for you, if you haven't been there for me. I find it funny, that now that my life is in order, everyone is being so much nicer to me. Only one person is walking all over me, and I don't know why I am letting her. I think it will change soon, because I am back to the Brittany that does what I want, when I want. I don't care who you are and what you do, I am me, whether you like it or not, and I am pretty sure I am here to stay.<3

I want to say thanks so much to the friends and couple family members who were there for me when I most needed it. I have felt so loved these past couple weeks. I don't know if it is you guys understanding me better, or me letting you in, but I love all my relationships with you right now. The only relationship I am not truly in love with is my little smurf, she keep trying to push me away. pahh, not gonna work. :).

Dear hero: thanks for being there for me, even though its probably annoying, me complaining about my brother. You are such an amazing person, I know I texted you about how amazing you are, but I want to say it again. You are beautiful and I love you to pieces. Thanks for helping me be strong and reminding me that I am not alone in this big world.

Dear life: please continue to only get better.

Sincerely, Brittany.<3

TWLOHA.

Tomorrow (11/11/11) Is 'To Write Love On Her Arms' day. To support those who are and have struggled with self harm. Write 'Love' on your wrist. Please get the word out.