Sometimes it takes a good fall to really know where you stand

I have so much to say, but I don't know how to say it. Usually, I don't have this much trouble writing, it just usually flows and I can't type fast enough.

One; Starting tonight I need to forget what's gone. Appreciate what still remains and look forward to what's coming next.
Two; Too many of my days are wasted comparing myself to others and wishing I was something I'm not.
Three; I have learned that no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself.
Four; I'm so lonely, I don't feel like getting up in the morning any more. Everything that used to make me happy, doesn't. I don't know what happened, either the people in my life just left me or I just started to push everyone away.
Five; I expect nothing from you and yet I am still disappointed every time.
Six; Just remember that when nobody else was there for you, I was. and when nobody else gave a damn, I did.
Seven; I only forgive you, because a part of me still wants you in my life.
Eight; Sleeping is nice. You forget about everything for a little while.

Heading to bed now, night(:

P.S. One day soon I will be un-lazy (?) <-- ahha. and try to look good so I can make my confessions video, I really want to do that still, really bad. I have it all written out, but I am so scared and too lazy. gahhh, life.(: