I just don't care.

I just don't care. I just don't care about Christmas this year, I was so excited for it, but now, I could care less. I am over everything in this world right now. I hate myself, my life, and my 'friends'. No one is there for me, no one is here for me. All I want to do is sit in my room and cry. I don't know why I am so sad, maybe it's because I don't feel loved. I think everyone hates me, everyone does hate me. I am so stupid, I am pointless. I am just so not happy right now. Everyone says fake it till you make it, I have been doing that and the shit don't work. :(