I am so sick of everyone pressuring me into doing stuff. I hate it. I am not the person that can just have my life decided for me. I have anxiety. I freak out, daily. I have anxiety attacks and no, sometimes it won't be okay. Do not tell me what I will do and stuff. It doesn't make me want to do it. I hate not having a choice. I never have a choice. I am never in control. I want to be in control. I hate that you all choose favorites and I'm never it. I hate that someone can treat me a certain way but once I retaliate I am the bad person. No, life doesn't work like that. If you can't take it, don't dish it. I hate how people act like they like me or enjoy my company.. I know you don't. I am just second best. And no, imitation is not the highest form of flattery. I love how you always have to act like me so that people will love you. Be yourself. Grow a pair. Stop trying to be like me, it gets old.
Anyway, that was my first rant of the new year.(:
This year I want to blog more, express my feelings more. I want to make new friends and attend church a little more. I want to stop caring what you all think of me. I want to pass at least three things off my bucket list. I want to rewrite my bucket list. I want to write in a journal or private blog. I want to find out who my true friends are. I want to not let others walk all over me. I want to be me, Brittany.
Hello new year, I'm becoming a different person. Please catch me, because I'm about to jump.(:
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