When I get older...

.. I will be stronger. They'll call me freedom, just like the wavin' flag."

Dear you:
So I put all your songs from you phone on my computer like 3 weeks ago, remember? Well, I decided to listen to iTunes today and all that keeps playing are your songs.

^That song came on, and I just cried. It's happened multiple times. Or like today, we saw that Sunny D is on sale, and we just started crying, because we miss you so much. Or when we see your friends it makes us sad. I try to remind myself that December isn't so far away, but it is. It's longer than I ever wanted you gone. You mean the world to me kid, why can't you stop doing drugs for me? I would give my life to make it so you never touched another drug, I swear to it. I am just so hurt that you let drugs take you away from you family, even if it's only for a couple months, you're still gone. You are going to miss Jasmine's birthday, you are going to miss Thanksgiving. Do you know what it is going to be like to only have 3 people around our table? Actually, we probably won't even have it. What's the point? We aren't a complete family without you. I just wish you knew how much this hurts us. We all want to protect you, so its hard that we can't right now. I think about you constantly, I might not seem like I love you when you're here, but I do. Be strong for us, please learn from this. I really can't deal with this anymore, every time I think about how I saw you the other day in court, it hurts me. I never want to see that again. I felt so helpless, because you were crying and I just wanted to make it better, but I couldn't. Please, hurry and earn the privilege for us to come see you. All I want right now is to see that you are okay. I love you handsome. Be good and safe.

Love,
Britt<3